Even the most insensitive, numb human being knows that the repetitive sound of a word leads to a resounding sense that numbs the receptors and stagnates the nerves and their ability to absorb information. For instance, Poe’s “The Raven” with it’s “evermore” and “nevermore” is obviously used to emphasize the persistent haunting of the narrator’s Continue reading

I’ve lost so much of what I had by holding onto them, but sometimes I can hold onto so much by losing it… in short, to let go, which someone said that it is something unknown to youth–an age of agony. And the age suffers… And to get through this suffering, to grow up, one Continue reading

there is no such thing as silence. It is by imposing silence that one hears an abundance of other sounds, that there is no silence, and that everything is an association of something else, that an impression is an impression of more things. If I impose silence upon one minute, within this time, a number Continue reading

A day where nothing falls, happens, an emptiness not empty or absent, becomes fulfilling, like how the light falls on the glass which reflects, falls, and reflects again, in which I am trapped in this multitude of reciprocation, but which I do not become the object of reciprocation, endless, infinite, empty… I am finite, and Continue reading

Almost two weeks since I’m in Toronto. Back in Toronto I should say. There’s so much to be happy about, so much to be sad about, but when you’re away from home, all sadness melts into a kind of happiness, of an ecstasy of sadness, melancholy, nostalgia. This summer, I’ve spent my summer well. I’ve Continue reading

Look closely but not too close. So you see nothing… look far, but not too far, so nothing sees you. K. said that when I say I don’t know, I really mean to say no, which made me realize that even what I say never means really what it says, that there’s a distinct personality Continue reading

Life. Gombrowicz. part of why I’ve decided to follow this plan that I have. Part of why it is totally unrelated to philosophy, on the surface at least. See, the shades of shades, the effects around it, the paths that permeate rather than diverge; I don’t care where they’re fromI only care how one uses Continue reading

I’m eating oatmeal and it’s 7:30. Have to leave for work. ugh–a single word of expression: nostalgia for something that has died, thus happened. Continue reading