Alone in a hotel. Someone comes knocking on the door—a shadow. They walk away, the footsteps fade. Then comes again. A knocking. Then another. I open the door. No one. Or I should say no one sees me. So I shut the door. I turn around and there is no one. Its just me. The Continue reading

That asshole. that swindle, that scoundrel, that unapologetic smile with a hook on the mouth, like a crooked pin… that narcissistic. The emperor… Continue reading

Went through the forest… wet and warm. High moisture, but the smell of grass, trees, mud, and grimy scraps… it’s like I never left. Tomorrow to Austria. 6 years since I was there. I wonder if places define us… the places that I went to before I even knew them as places with specific purpose. Continue reading

I want to be ecstatic. I don’t want to be happy. An outburst of suppressed emotions, complexes, desires… I have no interest in happiness. But ecstasy… the death of ecstasy is an ecstasy itself. I can revive death, transform it, and mold it into because there is no past which precedes it. The rupture of Continue reading

It’s Sunday and this is the Sunday that was last week’s Sunday, so almost two Sundays ago. In fact, when I think about it now, it probably is two Sundays ago. Because I’ve been too lazy to put down any entry in my diary, and I only call it my diary because I can write Continue reading