Almost two weeks since I’m in Toronto. Back in Toronto I should say. There’s so much to be happy about, so much to be sad about, but when you’re away from home, all sadness melts into a kind of happiness, of an ecstasy of sadness, melancholy, nostalgia. This summer, I’ve spent my summer well. I’ve Continue reading

Look closely but not too close. So you see nothing… look far, but not too far, so nothing sees you. K. said that when I say I don’t know, I really mean to say no, which made me realize that even what I say never means really what it says, that there’s a distinct personality Continue reading

Life. Gombrowicz. part of why I’ve decided to follow this plan that I have. Part of why it is totally unrelated to philosophy, on the surface at least. See, the shades of shades, the effects around it, the paths that permeate rather than diverge; I don’t care where they’re fromI only care how one uses Continue reading

I’m eating oatmeal and it’s 7:30. Have to leave for work. ugh–a single word of expression: nostalgia for something that has died, thus happened. Continue reading

If I can be unhappy and still go through with this tedious homework, then there will be no other times in which I could not do this thing, for I would never be this unhappy and find it as difficult as this again. Can I conclude this thought before I even found out about it Continue reading

Only when it’s summer do I miss summer, only when K. is here do I miss K. Who’s me through their eyes, the presence of presences, which are only presences of more people… Each exist within another; one must penetrate them. The inner penetration of the self with the self, others with others, all together Continue reading