YuHeng's blog

My days at vancouver have been great. too great. but i dont think its anything weird. i dont think its unnecessarily great. its great because it is good. it is good because i think it is good. its like why do you have to doubt it. like what use does it do. so im just gonna doubt everything thats good? doesnt that speak something about me? i know it does. thats why im over it now.

it took me seven years. seven fucking years to get a bit of understanding as to why im such a dumbass. a dim-wit who cant see things that i now see. which only makes sense. thats how it is. and yeah that’ll be the way it is. you know. its nothing crazy, its just like i dont even feel the need to reverse everything now. i dont need to make it good or any better. its good as it is. ill leave it at that. i’ll leave it at that. time to move on.

i woke up rather late today. no wait that was yesterday. yeah i woke up at nine today. nine thirty actually. i dont remember. it was the morning. but i went shopping around yaletown. it was lovely. so very lovely. i dont know why i didn’t come here more often. its a great place. a fucking great place, you know. you gotta come here and walk around for yourself. it was raining today, and all the cobblestones that lined the pavements were wet. it was good. it was so fucking good. everything is good when you let it be good.

i walked into a little store that sells Japanese chinaware. the lighting was very warm and light. i felt very warm and light, like i was distant and dreamy. you know. at the back of the store were overpriced books. very overpriced. but that didn’t matter because i didnt even buy any of it. so why do i care. i looked up on amazon and bought it from there instead. i just flipped through the pages and thought they had good books. cooking books. not regular books. not literature or philosophy. though i think cooking books are just like regular books, literature, and philosophy.

ok im tired now. its like 12:30 am. i wanna sleep. im dizzy. but i get to sleep in tomorrow. i should start prepping for my last final exam. and oh my food test too. yes yes. my days are good : )