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11:00. Scarbourough. Park. Snow. Wet shoes.

Dry.

Walk.

Sushi… Omakase.

Bar. Warm second floor, dimly illuminated with birdcages without birds. Window looks out the street…

Do you remember that

no

why dont you

Why

Yes, why

Something new.

To be

Yes

i don’t think you should

To be something new

Why

Because

One gets old

But even now, you are old.

I am getting old. But I, not old…

I want to be old

Desire is…

an abstraction

No it isn’t

Yes it is, to actualize and become real, so you have more desires, and out of desires, you have growing desires, growing desires…

each moment, like a slug, moving slowly towards the end of day. But the slug never stops and thinks, because it is good. It is good because of its slowness. It is slow because it is slow, and the slug knows it. So he never stops and thinks.

That’s what my brother said. I think he enjoys it.

And so do I.

I am becoming like my brother.