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They don’t care what A’s put out. No, they just give him a final judgement of the work. The conclusion of it is so total that you think the conclusion is just submitting to the totality of its own conclusion. But is that possible. Can you have a thing that submits to itself. A thing of a thing, a thing within itself? No, that’d be asking are you what you are because of what you are. Are you ___ because you are ___, or because of the you within yourself at work with the others outside of you? The you created for others. The existence which one has to prove for others and thus, the you only in existence for others. I have no need to prove myself to myself. I am I. But I do so because others are there. Others are people who think of themselves as I. Others as I who must prove to others who think of themselves as I. So I underlies the others, the things which are not I. But to get rid of the charge of circularity, we must say that the I is something else. And it’s something else when too many “I’s” lay on top of it. That is, I is a degree of gradation.

The I belongs to me in so long as I do not belong to an over-branching of others, who may cloud my existence. I am I if I do not belong to the shadows of others, if others do not crowd themselves upon me. The shades sheathed in shades. In short, why do they give out an indicative value of something that they are not indicative of themselves? that is, of absoluteness. Why are they so sure of themselves when they are just shadows of another. Why are they so sure that they are not shadows of laziness. Yes, they are appalled at the notion of laziness because they are not lazy. No, it’s the dereliction of body, of its relations to others. Why do I care for the others when I do not have to prove to them that the existence of me is real? Why do I care when I’m not obligated to say that I’m here, or there, or right here in front of your face? Well, they do not realize that you simply cannot exist if you do not prove yourself as an image. Who knows you are here, who knows that you are just being lazy. But being lazy is also a sign of existing… It is a sign of image. It exists outside of them, and they are pulled in a pulsating attraction. So what’s outside of them? Well, it’s laziness. It’s the road to existence, but they’ve chosen the outward appearance over it’s underlying nature.